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What I don’t like for being married

August 18, 2008 at 10:33 am · Filed under Diary ·Tagged

Kalo dulu aku pernah tulis beberapa point ke seorang teman ttg betapa menyenangkannya menikah,
sekarang.. aku lagi ngrasain beberapa hal-hal buruk dalam pernikahan..

Hal-hal buruk yg aku alami adalah bahwa setelah menikah aku jadi bergantung banget sama suami.. Aku jadi ga biasa sendiri..

Ketika akhirnya kami harus berpisah jarak.. semangatku melayang entah kemana.
Mo jalan-jalan tanpa suami ga berani.. seneng-seneng juga jd ga semangat.
Begitu suami pergi jauh langsung bingung.. bikin apa-apa ga bener.
Aku jadi malas ketemu temen karena teman2 pasti nanyain “kok datang sendiri, mana suamimu?”
Aku jadi seolah kehilangan semua temanku, karena emang dia udah jadi temanku dalam segala hal.

Ga ada yg diajak curhat.. ga ada yg nemeni aku disaat-saat tersendiriku..
Waktu terjaga ditidur malamku.. aku bener-bener sendiri..

Hari-hari kerja jadi pelarian karena tanpa dinanti, waktu berjalan dengan cepat sekali.
Tapi sebaliknya, hari libur jadi hari penyiksaan karena aku harus melaluinya sendirian.

Say, cepat pulang y..
Miss you so much..

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A place called home

July 13, 2008 at 12:45 pm · Filed under Diary ·Tagged

I sometimes called myself as an easy-adaptable girl (now woman :) ).
I travelled a lot.. moving to places.. living with families.. and (for me) I succeed.

Now, like I said before, I grow.. I’m a woman now, a married one.
I learn a lot (thanks to my parents), I have built a little principle in my head that might different from the places that I was called home before, I have my own (little) family, and I already have my own ‘home’.

Lately, I come to my previous home.. but funny that I miss the feeling.. feeling that made me always want to come back.
Seems that we have gap each other.
It’s not because we lost contact.. I do build a communication.
But really, I feel sad because.. I don’t know why..

Is it because I come without my hubby? or because we are now basically different in seeing things for we separated by distance and time?? or because of the difference something that we believe deep inside???

I do miss my old home..

Anyway, I believe that my old home have little (or big) influences for what I am now. And thanks God for I can live there in that time.

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Win a price

June 29, 2008 at 12:40 pm · Filed under Diary ·Tagged

One day in this month, in the ordinary busy day with iwan, i (feel like) winning a price.
My aunt call from distance, inform that she won a price and invite me to join them enjoy the prize.

Wow..  for me, it’s like me myself who won the prize.
I completely do nothing, but i got it.
Thanks God for the blessing.

The thing that made me sad is that I will have to live separately with iwan for maybe months.
I just can imagine what would that be..
I pray for him God.. I pray for us..
I will miss him so much.

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Depart to Indonesia

April 17, 2008 at 4:58 am · Filed under Diary ·Tagged

This is our last day in Manila.. -Anyway, I keep in mind that I will back here. I do love being here & I do call here is my home, so.. yup.. I will be back-

Busy day..

From first time in the morning all we did is doing the same job that we’ve been done in the last one month.. PACKING!!! Until the last time (4pm PST) still I felt that there’s still something left and unpacked yet.

I’ve tried not to cry.. I’ve tried to check and recheck.. I’ve tried to concentrate.. I’ve said goodbye since last week so I won’t feel so sad on the d day. But still at the last minute friends were coming and ruin my emotion.

Them that made me cry are: Pi Poom & Pi Pom, Theo, Eka, and Ladan.. how could them… hiks.. I love them.. when can we meet again..??

By the way, the journey to Indonesia is not that smooth.

Fenty and us all know that our baggage are overweight.. and also know that we were a little bit late. After bad traffic along the way (5.30pm), we arrived at NAIA we had to stay in the long queue. We have to wait until 2hours to reach the Cebu’s crew. Hahahaha.. it was God’s grace and a very good team work among Fenty and us until our baggage that out of the limit can pass without any fee.

Still not reach the plane it means we still had to run, run with plenty and heavy hand carries & run through posts and empty stomach. Fiuh..

Yeah.. finally, we reached the plane right on time and reached Jakarta.. and yup, we had to start to enjoy all the night in the airport.

So, thanks to all friends in Manila.. thanks to Fenty for your cooperation.. thanks God for your protection. Thank you so much..

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Walk in and around Manila

April 16, 2008 at 3:40 am · Filed under Diary ·Tagged

Akhirnya datang juga hari yang ditunggu-tunggu. Tamu negara kita, yg kali ini dari Thai, pi Poom, sister of pi Pom datang mengunjungi Manila.. and of course, she visit both of us also :D

I should inform that we are really waiting for her.. We postponed all the stuff to be released only because of her coming. We still want to be a good host and want to cook the best for the guest. Anyway, this is our last chance.

And the other reason I wait for her is that we all will travel around Manila with her.

The visit is, for me, successfully success.. huahahaha… applause for Theo. He is the one who arrange all the itinerary for the guest and us. And, sure, I enjoyed it very much.

We visit Pasagjan, Malacanang Museum, lunch Filipino food at Aristokrat, Coconut Palace-CCP Complex, and Mall of Asia. We even enjoyed the Thai massage.. huahahahahahaha.. yummy you know!!

Special thanks to Theo, pi Pom & pi Poom, Fenty, Kuya Agus, Farel, Jandy, Amsal, Cathy.. you all make our last days became our hardest day in Manila.. our toughest day because we will miss all of this just on tomorrow.

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On the way home

April 1, 2008 at 3:34 am · Filed under Diary ·Tagged

Going home is not easy as we thought before. The main reason is that we feel home already here in Manila.

First time Iwan discuss about going back to Indonesia, what I feel inside is that we will lose our privacy. Remember our first time we arrived in Manila, we chose our own house, we bought all by our own need and preference, we support each other.. we are completely happy living here alone..

Aside from that, we have to let go all the memorable things, to let go all the memories we had when we use them.. when we fight and made joke about all things we had.. and we have to going from the house and know that we will never able to come again. That was sad..

But, here we are.. we are only the men of God and what we should do is doing God’s plan. It was God’s plan that we can enjoy one of our happiest time in Manila by ourself, it was His plan also for us to be brave to face the bad thing. By doing that, we can really enjoy the happiness that God’s provide and facing all the troubles that God allow us to suffer.

All of those, what I can say is that I thanks a lot for all the days and all the friends and all the facilities and all the abilities we had here.

Thank you and You already made me ready to go home. As long as it with you God!

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Yuk thesis yukkk

March 27, 2008 at 3:04 am · Filed under Diary ·Tagged

Setelah hampir sebulan puasa jalan-jalan & puasa ngajak jalan-jalan, akhirnya iwan berhasil juga lulus proposal. Proposal thesisnya diterima dengan minor revision.

Hehehehehe.. pasti seneng lah diterima proposal thesisnya.
Tapi ada susahnya juga.. karena berarti Iwan mesti serius kerja thesis, dan harus dikejar supaya bulan Juli harus bisa selesai.

Susah lainnya, ternyata proposalnya ada revisinya.
Jadi thesis yg semula diajukan murah meriah.. sama para pembimbingnya diubah menjadi thesis yg lebih berbobot, dan tentunya butuh biaya dan usaha yg lebih keras.

Thesis iwan tu berupa pengenalan bahasa isyarat (angka aja).
Prosesnya dari pengambilan video bahasa isyarat.. trus di proses.. dan nantinya komputer akan bisa mengenali isyarat yg digerakkan oleh model (metta jadi modelnya).

Semula iwan dah coba2 (udah hampir selesai tu thesisnya) dengan menggunakan web cam.
Tapi setelah proposal, para pembimbing melihat bahwa web cam gambarnya pecah banget.. ga jelas.
Ya jadilah, mereka minta gambar dari Handycam..

Setelah ngitung2 dan timbang2.. ternyata kebutuhan untuk thesis jadi banyak juga.
Mana total iwan harus punya 5000 sample video angka.
Dan dengan kondisi kompie dan kamar kita yg sekarang, itu ga memungkinkan.
Maunya sih minta lab.. tapi aneh, di DLSU ga ada lab yg bisa dipake.. apalagi selama summer.

Dipikir2 lagi, rasanya ga mungkin kerja disini.
So, kita putuskan pulang untuk mengerjakan thesis di Surabaya.
hehehehehe.. iwan kan di surabaya dosen.. powernya lebih kuat daripada ketika dia disini jadi murid.. :)
Pemikiran kita, dengan pulang pengeluaran yang bisa lebih dihemat.

Nanti kalo di Indo udah selesai, baru kita akan kembali lagi ke Manila untuk sidang thesisnya.
Jadi, kalo semua lancar, April 16 kita pulang lalu Juli (awal ato Juni akhir) kita balik kesini.

Hiks..
Pada kesempatan ini.. kami mo terima kasih untuk semua temen2..
hehehehehehe. . lagi count down ni kita.. mana disibukkan dengan banyak urusan..
Tapi waktu pas kita leyeh-leyeh. . kita selalu inget betapa seneng dan menikmatinya kita disini.. dengan keadaan yg sekarang.. dan dengan teman2 yg ada.
Semakin kita pasti dalam memutuskan untuk pulang.. semakin susah rasanya meninggalkan manila.

Trus lainnya, kita minta maaf karena ga bisa nerusin persekutuan yg emang udah terhenti ini..
hiks..

Trus ada satu lagi.. karena banyak barang2 kita hasil pemberian dari teman2 lain..
Kita juga mau bagi semua barang kita.. lagian ga terlalu banyak juga.
Yang butuh barang2 silahkan datang, pilih, dan ambil.. (kalo barangnya besar mesti tunggu move out form, jadi mungkin baru bisa dibawa tgl 15 April)
Datang ke 3115 Vito Cruz Cityland Tower
720 Pablo Ocampo Ave
Malate Manila.
Segera ya.. sebelum tgl 15 April 2008. ok!!
Ya.. pokoknya kita nanti pasti banyak kesempatan lah untuk ketemuan di indo. atau pas Juli waktu sebagian dari kita pas sama2 bingung final defense.
Jadi.. selamat bertemu kembali .. :)

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